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Date: Friday, November 30, 2007
Time: 2:14:00 AM

whee!!!
can't sleep now. i'm like so excited that i'm gonna be at home tomorrow. oh, i mean today!! yesh i'll be heading home after dunno how many months. hehs.

and yes. i fell in love with the song 你并不孤单, and this's the lyrics of the chorus part which i really like and find it meaningful.
-明日或者相爱变传奇 但是你必先好好生活争气 生命似在垂死 只曾被嫌弃 在这残酷世纪 不断别离 能自爱别与世间去比 让自信优雅地哪愁没运气 上天总找到你 来日注定爱的总爱你-



nights! =D







Date: Thursday, November 29, 2007
Time: 8:35:00 PM

finally...
it's over!!!
the three week nightmare is over. i have got it over and done with. i spent too much of my time on studies for the past one month or so. now i just wanna chill out, and have fun!!! =D
yayayayayayay. Chenhui is super happy now. cos she can put aside all her notes and textbooks, and she doesn't need to touch any of them for the coming one month!!!
HOLIDAY! =D



i'm feeling a little disillusioned at the moment.
seriously, i cant imagine this kind of person actually exists.
i mean so far i have never met somebody like her.
and i still can't match that personality to her face. she seems so kind, innocent and pure.
but all shits! it's all acting.
i can't believe that i actually could be so naive to trust people like this. i thought i was smart enough to know what kind of people can be trusted.
wala. act to be super close to you, and suddenly, one stab from the back. this is really painful can?
forgive forgive forgive,
but i can never forget.
to you: thanks for the life lesson. i will remember that.

currently rotting away in room.
kfc has shifted out ardy. don't know who will be my roomie for the nz sem. please, no ah tiong please! LOL.
might be home tomorrow. hoorays =D
camps and meetings? put aside first. i need a break, seriously.


tada!~










Date: Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Time: 8:35:00 PM

i wanna blog about something happy today!

i know i have done badly for organic today, and i have spent hours lamenting over it. i wanna stop indulging myself in grievance and start mugging up for my biochem now. yeah the momentum is back!
i should not, and never will be affected so much by exams. studies are just part, and not all of my life. =D

Chenhui wanna thank God for His grace in her life.
Thanks for the friends He has blessed her with.
and all the wonders in her life. i LOVE YOU. =)


and yes!
i have managed to find Raymond Lam Fung's new album on haoting!!

it's called爱在记忆中找你. it's in cantonese though. it's really nice. i have started to like him after watching Heart Of Greed. he can act, can sing, and he's good-looking la! he's one of the rising stars, of perhaps has already risen, in the HK acting scene. hehe.
i like i like i like!


yeapie!
one last paper on thurs! and i can fly.
i wanna shop shop shop.
i wanna play play play.
i wanna eat eat eat.
and i wanna be home home home!!!!!
LOL. i'm siao.


Date: Sunday, November 25, 2007
Time: 11:44:00 PM

on the verge of breaking down.
i finally get that feeling. emotional, feel like crying. the prelim feeling revisited. i'm so scared and worried that i can't do well for organic chem. i spent so much time on it and i'm now left with almost no time for biochem.
i'm so stressed. i hate that disheartening feeling of putting in so much time on something and yet still can't perform. i really hate that feeling. i'm worried on tues, i will come out of the exam hall feeling disappointed again. i'm scared.
organic chem is my worst subject. it's not my style to run away from something i dread. but the more i try to overcome it, the harder it seems to be.
i don't know what on earth i'm emo-ing over now. at this time, i am supposed to be on high morale preparing for my papers. but i'm spending all my time worrying over things. mom called me just now, and i know i sounded impatient again. and he msn me, i think i also didn't show him much of politeness. feeling so bad. i also don't know why i'm like this.

i want all these shits to be over.
i hate it hate it hate it.
i hate exams. hate mood swings. hate.... 113...


Date:
Time: 1:57:00 PM

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Date: Saturday, November 24, 2007
Time: 5:33:00 PM

first of all,
congratulations to sis for getting the Global Immersion Programme to Shanghai! hehez. i know she has been hoping for this chance for really long, and has been worrying that she won't get it. and now she's relieved. but the only thing is that, she will be there for the whole semester and i have just talked to mom on the phone and i could tell that she's really worried.
anyway,i think everything will be fine. it might be tough to adapt at the beginning but sooner or later it will be alright. we've got to learn isn't it.
and... my future jie-fu is going to beijing!!
wahahs. can i request for beijing tian ya and shanghai xiao long bao from them??
to am: what are the specialities and delicacies in Shanghai?? i wanna ask my sis to get some back. lol.

well well. organic chem.
was feeling reallie terrible yesterday. picked up a new mugging skill from a coursemate which i find quite effective. write what you read, and read what you write. it helps super a lot! really. especially for this particular subject, the very much dreaded organic chem. zzz.

tada!


Date:
Time: 1:41:00 AM

tell me. tell me why am i feeling this way?
have you got this kind of feeling before? for no reasons u just feel sulky. and you just feel like crying. this's the 1st time i'm experiencing it since i came ntu. i don't know why i'm feeling so empty now. it was still ok just now. i still managed to mug up quite a bit. but now i totally can't.
it's not because of studies. this i know for sure.

now i'm just feeling very empty.
when people start to leave one by one, i feel uncomfortable. i feel lonely, lost, and empty. i don't like this kind of feeling. really don't like!!!!
i keep eating and eating now. somehow it makes me feel better. sigh.

exams.
it's too long.
feeling hysterical now. hopefully a good night sleep will help. i cant afford to stop here cos i have two more core to go.


Date: Thursday, November 22, 2007
Time: 11:29:00 PM

yes. it's me here to update again!!!
but i promise i will sleep early tonight, since there are no papers for the next four days, i shall grab the chance to revert to the normal routine again.
physics is down. -yay-. i think it was terribly done. but should be able to secure a pass. since it's a P/F subject, i guess how i did was good enough. =D

mech engin year 1 have finished their papers. on top of that, there are still CBC year3, business, accountancy... and triple E are done tomorrow. some of them are even getting prepared to go home... wala.. why are we still here??! i have two more core papers to go before i can relax!! heard some of them who have finished are planning on a indonesia trip somewhere this week. i'm SO JEALOUS can? =/ this's like so torturing. sigh.

you wont know what exams do to us. it actually drives us crazy.
PROOF:
two days ago, at a night just after heavy downpour, two crazy girls from ntu hall of residence 4 room 24-5-xxx actually went out of the campus at 11 plus.
we went all the way to the hawker center opposite City Harvest Church just to find out that all the stalls were closed. so we went all the way back to ah-fang again to have our wantan soup. wahah. don't you think we were crazy?! not the act of going out, but the very fact that we actually did it in the midst of major exam, at the time when everybody was mugging, and, at that kind of hour. wahah!

and today me and sokhui went kfc!!!
i have been craving for it since don't know when but just cant find the correct time to go out. and today after the physics paper, we decided to reward ourselves with a kfc meal. haha. i think we deserved that.
and seriously i'm craving for many many nice food now. i'm already drooling. lol.
i don't quite get myself sometimes. cos when i have nothing to do, i will just think about food. i wanna eat this, i wanna eat that. but i always end up chewing bread and biscuits in the room. sad case lah!!

okay. time to go to bed.
chiong again tomorrow!!


Date: Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Time: 8:45:00 PM

ooh. 111's done. finally.
it wasn't very well done, consider so much time has been put in. but heck la, there's nothing i can do about it, so just let it be. hopefully curving will help. =)
mom called jus now. i told her this paper wasn't very well done. all she said was ' it's ok, u tried ur best, and that's enough.' such a short sentence, yet made me feel 100 times better.
yes, i tried my best, isn't it? so why should i feel bad?

i realise it's boring talking about tests and exams all the time. i jus notice my posts recently have all been about the finals. it sounds like Chenhui doesn't have a life. haha.
let me tell you, i seriously miss home to bits now. i miss homecooked food, and i miss tv. haven't been watching tv since one month ago.
i have come to miss those days in chinese high boarding. 1 tv to 18 person, compared to 1 tv to one whole block of people now. it totally kills my mood to catch any show. somemore i'll have to travel all the way to the 1st floor to watch. haihz.
anyway, i have jus got the news from mom yesterday that Mr and Ms NTU have managed to claim the titles of the reality show, HEY! GORGEOUS! i'm so slow huh. this shows how apathetic i have been these days.
i have never met these two seniors in campus though. haha. and i think the girl really looks gorgeous. =)

and yesh! Jun and YF are actually planning for class chalet again!!! OMG. i really hope that this plan will be carried out successfully, cos i reallie miss those fun time we spent as a class. so jia you okays? me sure on one. 100% support given to you two!!! =P



Ok, time for physics. sianz.
yawnz.
...............................



yea seriously,
Chenhui really has no life,
NOW.


Date: Monday, November 19, 2007
Time: 5:09:00 PM

FOR ALL THE MIDNIGHtT OIL BURNERS OUT THERE!!!
read this, and u'll find urselves in the process of committing suicide.
including myself.. huhuz.


#
BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS
1. No Breakfast
People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.
2. Overeating
It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking
It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

4. High Sugar consumption
Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

5. Air Pollution
The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

6. Sleep Deprivation
Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.

7. Head covered while sleeping
Sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

8. Working your brain during illness
Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

10. Talking Rarely
Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain
------------ --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- -------

The main causes of liver damage are:

1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.
3. Too much eating.
4. Skipping breakfast.
5. Consuming too much medication.
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring , and artificial sweetener.
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cooking oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.
8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver.
Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.

We should prevent this without necessarily spending more. We just have to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good eating habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to 'schedule.'

Because :

Evening at 9 - 11 PM : is the time for eliminating unnecessary/ toxic chemicals (detoxification) from the antibody system (lymph nodes). This time duration should be spent by relaxing or listening to music. If during this time a housewife is still in an unrelaxed state such as washing the dishes or monitoring children doing their homework, this will have a negative impact on health.

Evening at 11pm - 1 am : is the detoxification process in the liver, and ideally should be done in a deep sleep state.

Early morning 1 - 3 am : detoxification process in the gall, also ideally done in a deep sleep state.

Early morning 3 - 5 am : detoxification in the lungs. Therefore there will sometimes be a severe cough for cough sufferers during this time. Since the detoxification process had reached the respiratory tract, there is no need to take cough medicine so as not to interfere with toxin removal process.
Morning 5 - 7am : detoxification in the colon, you should empty your bowel.

Morning 7 - 9 am : absorption of nutrients in the small intestine, you should be having breakfast at this time. Breakfast should be earlier, before 6:30 am , for those who are sick. Breakfast before 7:30 am is very beneficial to those wanting to stay fit. Those who always skip breakfast, they should change their habits, and it is still better to eat breakfast late until 9 - 10 am rather than no meal at all.

Sleeping so late and waking up too late will disrupt the process of removing unnecessary chemicals.
Aside from that, midnight to 4:00 am is the time when the bone marrow produces blood.
Therefore, have a good sleep and don't sleep late.
#



i promise! i promise i will change my habit after this sem!!!
i have to admit that i got a bit scared after reading this.
brain and liver damage????!!! OMG.





Date: Sunday, November 18, 2007
Time: 3:29:00 AM

yay! another day passed! time to go to bed ardy. lol.
guess tomorrow is the time to start my physics. though it's a P/F subject, i won't want the letter 'F' to appear on my transcript. hehe. so physics, here i come for you!!! tomorrow i mean.

feeling all dizzy. now i finally understand what it means by locking urself up and mug like a nerd. i'm practically experiencing it now. i even eat in the room. trust me, it's miserable eating ur packet of rice facing the screen. after exams i wanna have many many gatherings to compensate for the misery that i'm having now. haha.

okay. zzz.
nitey night~


Date: Saturday, November 17, 2007
Time: 1:55:00 AM

i don't know what's wrong with me.
my mind keeps wondering today. can't concentrate. not productive at all.
i hate this feeling. spend the whole day mugging and it turns out that nothing is absorbed. time and energy are wasted, and nothing i get in return.
cannot be like this again tomorrow. no time liao. i'm running against the clock...
aiks!!
JY Chenhui! can't lose to the clock!!!


Date: Thursday, November 15, 2007
Time: 8:24:00 PM

finally, two subjects down.
finally can relax a bit. but i'm not stopping.
past few days have been really tensed, so it's now time to take a short break.
yesterday math was okay. manageable. but u know what, if i find a paper ok, that means most people will find it ok too. so there's really nothing i should be very elated about.
and forensic today. no comments. many weird weird questions. but good thing is that most people also share the same feelings. so i shan't get too worried. hehs.

sometimes i really feel very pointless studying like this. it's like, we spend so many sleepness nights slaving over those notes, feeling tensed-up and all, and in just two hours' time, we can bid farewell to the notes. jus like my stack of forensic notes now, they are piling up on the table, grimly awaiting the day to be used as rough papers, and finally, being thrown into the bin. horhor.
yes. no more forensic next sem, no more boring 3-hr lecture in audi. yay yay yay.

the worst is yet to come.
next week will be my core exam papers. tell me, tell me now that i should not feel scared.
yawnz. gonna mug till dunno what time again later.
i know this's bad for health, but at the moment, i have no other choices.

okays. off to mug. oops i mean to rest, then mug. =D


Date: Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Time: 3:46:00 AM

it really feels good when u mug till this wee hour, and you still see green colour icon on ur msn list. it feels good when u mug till u're almost going crazy, and there're people on the list whom you can talk to to chill out a bit. u feel that you're not alone at all. and it even keeps you going.
jus now one of my friend even suggested that we'll catch early breakfast tml so that we won't fall asleep. haha. but i know i sure cmi one. i can sleep late but i can't don't sleep at all, or else tomorrow i'll be a walking corspe.

today i reallie did maths till my mind now is full of nothing but mathematics symbols, theorems, equations. and, I HAVEN'T FINISHED!!! wth.
jus one more day away from the 1st paper. i've jus had a look at the pass year, and they are no joking matters! one word, tough.
and i wanna say that i'm really scared now.
but nothing can be done and changed. i will jus put in my best to prepare for the remaining time. and after that, i can fly!!!~~~
holiday awaits. geez. that's my only pushing factor.

wish me lotsa luck ba. my maths has never been fantastic. but i'm already working very hard.

OH YA did i mention that today there was thunderstorm? unstopable somemore. i think it lasted for about 30-45 minutes. it was at about 9 plus in the morning when i was still in my slumberland. and suddenly *WALA* - thunderstorming. i'm not exaggerating. it was so loud that we couldn't sleep back. and the small pail that i put outside my room even flew away. imagine how strong the wind was. it was scary la. i mean i have heard loud thunder before but this was the first time i felt so intimidated, to the point that i was a bit scared.

anyway, time to zzz.



jy everyone!(:


Date: Sunday, November 11, 2007
Time: 8:27:00 PM

the progress is good.
have been staying in the room all day long. doing nothing but mathematics. can anyone tell me why is there such a thing called calculus on earth? it's jus so boring. i have always preferred sciences over mathematics.
oh well.

went for a jog with kfc jus now.
OMG! i could only manage a 1.2 jus now!! can you believe it? after not running for almost a year, i think it's still acceptable. but, but... can u believe it? i started panting at the 2nd round. and the 3rd one, i was almost dying. cmi lah reallie. reallie have to start building up that stamina. not only stamina alone, i think it does help in increasing immunity to many illnesses as well. and u'll feel more refreshed and invigorated after the run. that's precisely what i'm feeling now. =D

ok it's time for mathematics again. go go go chenhui!!! a little bit more only... *YEAH RIGHT*

please, can somebody give me some stress???
how come, i don't quite feel it any longer? the level is too high till i can't feel it anymore? zzz.

aza aza~


Date: Saturday, November 10, 2007
Time: 12:01:00 AM

还没决定往哪儿走，所以不能答应你陪我。


Date: Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Time: 10:56:00 PM

saturated.
feeling so damn sian now. NO LIFE arhhhhhh!!!!
but i know it'll be over soon. have been spending these few days in my hall reading room. it's good that i've finally found myself a place where i can study productively.
spent some time on textbooks( u won't know how dreadful these things are), and realised that there's actually so much things that i dunno. should have flipped through them more frequently last time, mayb i could have performed better in my quizzes.
i have done okay for my biochem and physical chem CA.
i mean, compared to my previous midterm, this's considered not bad. of cos if compared to those top top people, this's jus nothing. but i'm satisfied.
improvement is good, even if it's very little.
cos' this's a good sign that i can make it at the end.
i don't know why sometimes ppl are jus so kiasu. i mean, it's just a midterm, and one mark out of it may jus be equilvalent to 0.0x percent of the overall score. why so kan-cheong? i don't understand.

anyway, i'm happy now.
it actually took me almost a sem to find out that I DID'NT CHOOSE THE WRONG COURSE!!!
i have always been thinking about this, cos my chem wasnt reallie fantastic in jc. but now, i have come to love it. the interest has its time developing. and the affinity for it! =) i love what im studying and working on, and although on ONE PARTICULAR AREA i still need lotsa hard work to improve, i'm happy! and yes, that one particular area is non other than organic chem. it's tough, believe me. it's not like those that we learnt at 'a' levels. it's..... er, speechless.

anyway, this's a relaxing night for me. i believe that my brain needs some rest today la. gonna sleep early and wake early to chiong tml.

and you, are you the one? thanks for all these time. and it's nice chatting with u. =)


and

Happy DEEPAVALI to all who celebrate this day! =)


Date: Sunday, November 4, 2007
Time: 12:41:00 PM

air-conditioned reading rooms, air-conditioned 图书馆, tutorial rooms, 为什么却比不上一个 jj 的 wooden bench？
我想要到 jj 的 wooden bench 去读书, 可以吗？


Date: Friday, November 2, 2007
Time: 10:16:00 PM

i'm finally done with all my core subjets midterms.
since i have a little bit of time tonight, i decided to post something here. -i miss blogging- hehe.
after 111 paper today, me, emily and sokhui decided to find a place to hang out, in the name of chilling out. actually we had this plan since last week. we were so stressed by all the tests and deadlines, so we were saying that we must go out after all the tests, by hook or by crook.
and really, we went to jp to have our lunch. and after that, we proceeded to westmall. it seems such a weird place to shop, but we had fun window-shopping, and buying stupid stuffs like potato chips and some other titbits. and we actually spent quite some time in one of the accesorries shop there looking at just hairclips alone.
all in all, we had fun there! and i feel reallie relaxed now after almost two weeks of stress.
but i know good time doesnt last. stress will come back, and i will feel the pressure again tomorrow. haih. what to do...

chiong on!!

one good thing about me is that,

i have nothing. nothing at all.
but all i have, is the spirit. the never-dying spirit. thanks God for that.
i know it's tough, but i will continue to strive. things have never been easy for me, since the time i started everything. but i have never given up. i'm strong okay! =P
i have forgotten when was the last time i shed a tear. but for sure not at time when i was weak.
i used to cry a lot last time. when i didn't do well for a paper, when i felt stressed, when i had to leave home, when stupid ax went missing all of a sudden... but as years wore on, i have learnt to be stronger. when things seem to be at the dead end, i always choose to face it. face it face it face it, is the best way to overcome it.
i dun cry. cos i believe that crying will make me weaker, and it will make it harder for me to face any challenge ahead.

haiz. time to chiong again. i'm tired leh, but i will not give up. heh.

jus a side note, a new lesson learnt. in order to do well for a paper, you have to get adequate sleep the night before the paper.
one lecturer, i forgot who, once said this. if u just study 80%, have adequate sleep and throw in your full 80% during the paper, is better than u study 100%, have not enough rest and just manage to throw in 50% during the paper.
true huh?




tada!


Date: Thursday, November 1, 2007
Time: 6:48:00 PM

finally biochem mid-term is over. more to come though, and it's 111 tomorrow. dun think i have done very well, but at least better than 113. somehow i find that biochem is much more manageable than organic chem now. and to be honest, i'm actually dreading the organic chem paper, after the terrible performance in mid-term 2.

OH MY GOD! it's less than 2 weeks! and to be exact, it's 13 more days!!!! ><

CHIONG ARH!~